Yesterday and Today

Going, going, gone. What's left? Confusion! Anger! Grief! Hate! Why the long Face? Why the empty space in this endless chaos? The end has come and gone. Am I still hear? Fear within fear within never.....ending pain. Lost! Power....less! Wait! I'm back. Or am I? Toasted! Roasted! Blank and hopeless! Is this really happening to me? Drunk and Sober. Never over. Going, going, gone. Not tonight. I think not.